ito naman love story ko... i won't forget this onoe even if you kill me
PART 1
Highschool i fell in love with a girl just for one look... niligawan ko sya when i was in first year but i stopped..kase yung mga friends nya garapal and i don't feel comfortable with it... lalo na nung natutukso na siya ng family niya dahil sakin. I think its best to stop it nalang. Naging classmate ko sya nung 3rd year kami and we became bandmates also, sa drums sya and im on the piano. HIndi ko forte ang magpiano-organ... i just practiced and studied the songs she plays and some piano basics pra lang maging kabanda sya... then i suited her again.
The stupidiest thing i did is when i ask her "Kelan mo ako sasagutin?" This is the question our guitarist na sobrang hangin na sinuggest niya sa akin dahil sabi niya may pagasa naman daw ako... naniwala ako sa mga words niya dahil close din sya sa drummer namin. It was that night, pauwi kami from school at ihahatid ko siya..bumaba kami ng jeep then on the corner of some street in Gabbys Mandaluyong kung saan may tricycle papunta sa kanila. Medyo matagal dumating mga tricycle so i took the opportunity and asked her the question i really regreted my whole life. Natahimik lang siya and said goodbye. Few days later I recieve a letter from her we should be friends nalang at magkabanda pa kami.. baka masira lang yun. Who knows baka raw maging kami someday.
But I didn't stop... many times i love her unselfishly. I watch her from far away, always be with her when she needs me, treat her specially...kahit na nilalayo niya ang sarili niya sa akin, pinapahiya ako, dinidedma, at kung anu-ano pang masasakit na bagay... tinatangap ko nalang thinking na someday maappreciate din niya mga ginagawa ko sa kanya at maramdaman niya no matter what im always here for her.
I promised her even na kahit hindi maging kami at makahanap man kami ng iba my feelings won't change.
One night naginuman kami sa house nang friend namin.. ako ang umalalalay sa kanya kase pagewang gewang na siya sa kalye. We stoped in front of PLDT sa may hagdan in front of RTU at duon nagpahinga muna. I'm with Charles (my bestfriend) and his ex that time. Meron kaming button pins na may picture naming magkakaibigan at nilagay niya sa damit ko yun pin niya. Then she cried saying ang t*nga t*nga daw ni Diane (classmate namin) hindi raw sinasagot si Ian (guitarist naming mahangin)... ang bait bait na raw at parating nandyan para sa kanya pero hindi niya kayang sagutin kahit may nararamdaman na siya. She keeps on saying this so many times... I asked her "Eh bakit hindi na lang niya sagutin?" she answered "Ang t*nga t*nga nya talaga... ang t*nga t*nga niya...." then silently she said pero narinig ko... " ang t*nga t*nga ko...." i really feel happy that time na hindi ko na alam sasabihin ko... i dont want to take advantage of her until she looks in my eyes at napapalapit na face niya sakin.. konti nalang i could kiss her.. pero nilayo ko sarili ko. I told her "lasing ka na, haitd na kita sa inyo". that time i dont want to take advantage of her... if I'll kiss her i want it to be because she has already accepted me and not because she's not with her self. Baka bukas hindi niya matandaan lahat... masaktan lang ako.
Most memorable thing is also the Promb night namin.... she's my first and last dance. She's really beautiful that time. After kong maisayaw siya sa last song nung promb hindi na ako nakipagsayaw sa ibang girl...
Time pass by i became close to her whole family... many great things also happened between us that I really treasured. pero wala parin. So i decided to change school on college para makalimutan siya dahil balita ko sa RTU din siya magcocollege.
A year after she called me, nangungumusta... i forgot why did i go to her place but its for a reason... nagpaptulong yata siya before on something.. basta pumunta ko sa knila nun. Then we became close again... now its a bit different, i feel like she likes me... she's so nice, kuya jorrell pinapatawag na nya sakin sa pamangkin nya, there's something different and magical pero i really think there's something na... until one day na dapat magkikita kami sa house niya at uwumi pa sya from cavite para lang imeet ako... hindi ako nakapunta because of a very urgent meeting in school. I called her after that and she's really mad. I said sorry pero galit siya.... After that i stopped talking and meeting her... i failed again with her. Nagalit na naman siya.... i feel like its the end of everything... uulitin ko na naman ang nakaraan. Special chance ko na to sa kanya but I messed it up again. So i said to myself we are not meant to be. Binigay ko sa kanya lahat ng memories na nagpapaalala sa kanya sa akin: letters, resibo of our dates (i keep this things para maalala ko na minsan nagkasama kami in this days...at marecall ko rin mga happy moments namin that day), ticket to star city and echanted kingdom (ito yung mga ticket na kasama ko siya and wow that time sure really is fun and memorable), gate pass of the basketball ball of her na pinatago niya skin for a while(nilinisan ko ito at kayakap ko sa pagtulog gabi-gabi for 2-3 days) bago niya kinuha yung ball ulit sakin, and other things... and lastly the first letter she gave me on August 12 where she first dumped me at sabing maging friends nalang muna kami.
i decided everything's over.
PART 2
I met a girl in the chatroom and we became realy close. That time Ate pa tawag ko sa kanya at nagpapatulong ako sa nililigawan ko na malapit lang sa amin, she's 22 i'm 18 that time.... pati nga christmas gift and other stuffs sa kanya ko humingi ng advice... until i stopped suiting that girl kase feeling ko the girl i met in the chatroom has more things in common with me and i feel happy talking to her compared to the girl na nililigawan ko. A month later after i stopped suiting that girl then yung girl from chatroom naman ang niligawan ko. Then few months lang naging kami. At first i don't love her that much until days pass by i fell in love with her more and more and more.
August, same year, the girl i deeply loved when I was in HS has called me nangungusmusta ulit. Parang wala lang sakin since i already love somebody else... but i still treat her special because of our past and my promise. And narinig ko pa sa bestfriend ko na minsan nagkwentuhan daw sila nun at sinabing mahal din pala ako ni drummer girl and she's only waiting to tell her i lover her. This is really sh*t! Bakit ngayon pa?!? ngayong may mahal na akong iba... I can't say to her anymore that I love her because of the event happened dun sa may sakayan ng tricycle few years ago. Naging trumautic sakin ang event na yun so its hard for me to say i love her at dinadaan ko na lang sa sulat ang things i do for her.
August 21 her debut, she didn't expect me to come there... sinetup ako ng family niya bago ko magpakita sa kanya. Inannounce pa nila sa mic yung pagpunta ko sa kanya and she's standing in there looking very beautiful in her dress. I danced with her for a minute and talked for a while pero hindi kami makapagusap masyado because she's crying.. she said she's happy to see me. Later, nagusap kami inside her house, just the two of us... and want to verify kung totoo ang narinig ko sa bestfriend ko. Pero ang gulo nang sagot niya.. she still can't admit to me that she loves me... at duon ako naturn off. She can't be true to her feelings. At this time i really get confused.... what will i do, may mahal na akong iba. Sinong pipiliin ko? The girl i loved for years and sacrificed with so many things or the girl im presently inlove with. I want to be with the drummer girl pero diko sure kung magiging kami, baka masktan lang ulit ako, baka maulit lang ang dati... i left there house then nung naglalakad na kami palayo sinabi ni jonathan (my bestfriend din) na kausapin ko raw si drummer girl, she really likes me and nagmemessage pa raw siya sa radio para igreet ako. Naghehesitate ako nun una pero naglakad ulit kami pabalik, I want to confirm this to... baka ito na yung chance na hinihintay ko for so many years... pagbalik namin dun nasa labas lang ako ng house nila, i forgot kung nasa labas din ba sya nun or tinawag sya ni jonathan para lumabas... then sabi ko sa kanya may sasabihin ako and blah blah blah then i asked her "pwede ba kita maging gf?" sabi nya "may gf na daw ako" sabi ko "i'll leave her for you" (nung sinabi ko to i feel this is the now or never situation, if i can't have her that night this is it na... its really all over... i answered the meanest and pinakamasakit na salita my gf could ever hear and know but then i did it).. but she answered "pagiisipan ko muna, masyadong mabilis ang lahat." sabi ko ok sige...
I told this event to my GF and she cried and nakipagcool off muna siya... she wants me to choose freely kung sino ba talaga.
For a week i think about it.. sino ang pipiliin ko. Ang taong mahal ko pero hindi ako mahal o ang taong mahal na mahal ako at mahal ko din. Siyempre obvious yun nang taong mahal na mahal ako... pero what if few years later yung taong mahal na mahal mo eh sinabing mahal ka din niya? sino ngayon ang pipiliin mo kung mas matimbang ang mga events na pangyayari sa inyo comparing to your present love. I even asked for the Fuku's help (my bestfriends) and they advised me to keep my GF instead and made me realized things that I couldn't admit but true... that its all over between me and the drummer girl, just great memories.. and i can't live with memories... i have to live with the present, with girl who trully loves me.
At the end i choose my GF.. i can't hurt her and I also love her. It's true I also have feelings to drummer girl but its too late.. all was left on me was her memories..and the things she did to make me a better person. Dati akong basagulero, baduy manamit, etc... but because of her my life changed. And I want to thank her for that... but still I can't love her anymore. Masakit but I only have to choose one... and I choose the person who I'm going to marry soon. kahit na simple lang ang relationship namin compared to my HS life... i still love her. No matter how great the past is its still the past...
So what I feel for drummer girl... she's a special person to me and I still have a promise for her... my feelings wont change but I can't love her... I really can't anymore. The love is gone but the special treatment is still the same.
And for my GF, she's really great.... before I asked God na sana matapos na hardships ko kay drummer girl at marealize na niya na mahal niya ako or sana makatagpo nalang me nang iba na mamahalin talaga kung sino ako... and God answered.. she gave me my future wife.
kung balak niyo gawing pelikula or teleserye ito.. my name is jorrell, drummer girl is jessa, and my future wife is khyme.... hehehe