How are you?, How are you feeling....

[Amanda]

I'm sleepy and don't feel like waking up yet.

[evie dee]

My volunteer application at my library's used book store went through! I"m volunteering there once a week.

[Amanda]

I'm great

Been racking my brain to try to think of a good idea for an imaginative essay my English class. Thought i'd listen to YG for inspiration, and it worked! Going to base my essay on 'Lillian lies'. xD

[evie dee]

I'm in MUCH better spirits. I cut off all contact with the old friends.
I went to a meeting on a day off from rehearsals-I found out about a new knit group through meetup.com, so I clicked the yes beutton. When I got the location t hat the meeting was at-my heart sank, and I swear my stomach did a 360! I saw the bitches that ruined things for me there. I paid for my iced tea, flipped them off, and got the hell out of there. (Okay, so maybe flipping them off was wrong, but they were the ones that did something wrong.) And, they got someone that I didn't know from the new group to harass me and stalk me through ravelry. I went to the mods in one of my groups, and had to have them delete all of their posts because the posts were so nasty. I went to the legal department, adn turned their asses in for what they had done. (I haven't heard back from legal.)
It was getting to the point where I was cutting myself on a daily basis because of what they had done. And, they were even following me on my blog that I keep strictly for knitting purposes, and they even left comments that made me feel so uneasy-even after I had told them to stop both in the blog and ravelry, or they'll be sorry-and soem of the comments were full of namecalling that would have made a queen bee blush! I was even sent unmarked pm's by the same group of "women" (and, I am using the term rather loosely) that had the same content as the comments-nast names, and they were trying to get me to respond to them, but I make it a point to not open anything t hat is unmarked (always have,a nd always will).
I'm ina better place now. I just feel like I can't trust anyone at the moment, after all that. I still have trust issues that I need to work out.

I did meet someone at open mic nite a few weeks ago. And, we were talking betweent he sets. We didn't exchange numbers or anything. I'm not ready for a relationship at the moment. Untill I work out all of my trust issues, then maybe, I'll be ready.

[Amanda]

Hating school. Cannot wait until November.

[Lunastar1979]

You're way too young to hate school. Give it at least a few years into college. When you reach your 5th year in university for a 4 year degree, that's when it really starts to suck.

Anyway, I'm off to my third orientation session. They'll tell me things I already know and don't really care about. Maybe I'll daydream about Toby's twirly mustache. I swear, I've never seen anyone before that pulled one off, but when you see him you automatically say to yourself "wow, that really should have been there the whole time...really suits his face".

[Lunastar1979]

Feeling pretty excited. Invited to another Teach for America phone interview. I made it through to the in person interviews last year, but canceled my application because I didn't have time to pass the required exams in time. Getting a head start this year and feeling pretty stoked.

[evie dee]

I have some good news. Been away for a while.
I'm in a MUCH better place. The stalkers haven't gotten to me. And that's what stalking-even cyberstalking-really is, bullying. Stalkers are bullies who just want to have some type of power. I couldn't let them get to me. And now, they haven't bothered me anymore. I don't want people in my life like that, and I certainly don't need people in my life like that.
I also have a volunteer job. I volunteer at my library's used book store 3 hours a week! And, we get $3 worht of free books at the end of every month. And, we get free snacks!

[Amanda]

The thought that everything that I do this year will affect my future is depressing me. Agggghhhhh yuck.

[Amanda]

I'm good. Only two practce exams left.

Plus, I had a dream that YG came to my house last night, and they seemed to know who I was. It was great

[evie dee]

I'm getting ready for my first craft show!

[Amanda]

Loving the fact that the year I finally turn 18 is the year that Youth Group decides to 'take a break'. It's not like I've been waiting since 2006 to be able to actually go to a proper gig, or anything